for experience's sake...

i slaughtered a chicken today. Me. I still cant believe I did that... it was like in a horor movie scene..except that everything was sunny and happy in the morning...all KPLI teacher trainees were there, there were like 50 chickens being slaughtered this morning.. blood everywhere, headless chickens by d gate, some in a huge wok, some on the tables to be cleansed..I, was among the last few to do it... niat dlm hati tidak mau menyembelih sbb takut kesian... dont get me wrong, i love eating chicken meat of all meat, but hey, i believe some ppl r not born to do those things...n killing an animal so helpless n small is the last thing i'd want to do to eat...but for experience's sake, i tried...because they say, u'll never know it ntil u try right? so i obeyed...it was easy yet im NOT proud of myself...even tho its an achievement that we now know how chickens we eat evryday are slaughtered......for experience's sake.................... :(